Cravings!!

Here I am, on Day 5 of the Ultimate Reset. I loved the foods I've eaten today! Oatmeal, Quinoa salad and hummus with veggies, and tonight, more Ah-mazing stir-fried veggies. (Also miso soup, though, which is pretty iffy). But oh, how I miss coffee!

I want to share my reasons for choosing this cleanse. It's a bit expensive for me on my new lower wage at the coffee shop so it was a pretty big decision financially. Not only that, but I have struggled mightily with actually sticking with my own prescribed "diet" for longer than 3 or 4 days. I have developed some really bad habits of snacking all the time, which then would make me feel badly about myself leading to more emotional eating. On top of it, I could not break myself of sugar. Obviously, it's possible as I'm proving to myself right now and I'm on my fifth day of NO SUGAR! Yay me!
I'm tired of seeing pictures of myself and not recognizing the person I see, and not because of my occasional hair color changes. So, yes, I'm going into this hoping to lose some weight. But above and beyond that, I want the 21 days to be a real and true lifestyle change. Something that forces me to break my bad habits, develop  new and healthy ones, and give myself the confidence and tools to continue to lose the weight necessary to be healthy again.

There have been a couple of nights this week in which I wanted to say "screw it" and order out. I don't love cooking and this is definitely an extended version of what I normally would cook. Another habit to break (eating out because of laziness) and a good one to form (cooking at home with healthier ingredients. I'll have to learn efficiency).

I WANTED sugar today! I had to go to Walmart and it seems like all the sugar cried out to me. Made me think of Confessions of a Shopaholic where all the mannequins speak to Rebecca.

Day 4:
Yesterday was so hard! I knew it would be because of the day long training for work. I prepared all my foods and supplements but I had to sorta sneak my supps so people wouldn't think I was on some strange drug LOL. Also had a terrible headache STILL which didn't help. So, long story short, there were a series of difficulties which lead me to eat a provided Subway Sandwich instead of my prepared lunch. I made the decision then and there to move on immediately and have no regrets or beat myself up over it. After all, I did resist the free coffee and pastries that confronted me throughout the day.

Day 5:
I feel pretty good today. I've had some weight fluctuations and I'm back to the 4.4 lbs lost. I'm tired because I opened the coffee shop again today but I don't feel the crazy fogginess from lack of caffeine, but I did buy some Zen green tea today. Everyday gets me further from meat so again, I'm so thankful for Sean's support because it's a change for him too. I'll make him some chicken with our stir-fried veggies and miso soup tonight. Last night he ate a LOT of quinoa to make up for his lack of meat ;)